Dear Thoughtful—
I sit in my study now, looking out over the River of Life, beginning to write the story of my life—how I left Uncertain, and everything that followed. As you know Stephen King once wrote:
Writing is magic, as much the water of life as any other creative art. The water is free. So drink.
Drink and be filled up.
I was once told that my writing style most closely resembles Tolstoy—but when I first opened War and Peace, I was immediately humbled. My work felt amateurish and childish by comparison, especially when it came to dialogue.
So I came up with a plan: I would rewrite War and Peace as a practice exercise—set in the Dream-Lands I love and call home.
War and Peace opens with a party scene. One phrase kept echoing in my mind: Party at Wanton’s. I thumbed through the book Beautiful gave me and found the passage:
Then Miss Light-Mind added as follows: ‘Come, put this kind of talk away. I was yesterday at Madame Wanton’s, where we were as merry as the maids. For who do you think should be there, but I, and Mrs. Love-the-Flesh, and three or four more, with Mr. Lechery, Mrs. Filth, and some others. So there we had music and dancing, and what else was meet to fill up the pleasure. And I dare say, my lady herself is an admirably well-bred gentlewoman, and Mr. Lechery is as pretty a fellow.’
Madame Wanton fit the profile of Anna Pavlovna perfectly. I would attend her party and speak with each guest, beginning with Miss Light-Mind, recording every conversation. But even Dreams have rules—and they were only characters in my Book.
So I created a Dream within a Dream—and a character to represent me: Perry. He had no backstory, no defined personality. And yet, he chose his own name. I can’t explain it. As an act of pure mischief, I modeled his appearance on Faithful—the one Madame Wanton once tried to seduce at the Hill of Difficulty.
My instructions to him were simple: he would speak to one character per scene. He could say or do anything he wished—free of consequence. After recording each encounter, I would reset the Dream, and he could begin again. Over and over, until he—or rather I—had learned to capture character and craft dialogue perfectly. No one would remember anything—except him.
His first attempt was a disaster. He quoted Prince Vasily from War and Peace verbatim—but delivered it so poorly that Madame Wanton mocked him. Miss Light-Mind only wanted to dance. When he tried to pull her over for a quiet conversation, she immediately lost interest.
He seemed almost panicked by the experience. I reassured him he could try again—this time, to capture Prince Vasily’s insincerity and simply dance with Miss Light-Mind. But something strange happened. Madame Wanton remembered. And as he approached Miss Light-Mind again, Miss Inconsiderate bumped into him.
Miss Inconsiderate’s personality completely took me by surprise—she was nothing like I imagined. Her clumsiness and insecurity were so endearing that I felt a pang of heartbreak when I reset the Dream for Perry.
Then Madame Wanton remembered again. Their dance struck me as particularly strange—more a duel than a waltz. And her name… Evadne. Where had that come from?
I was just about to reset the Dream again when she knocked on Perry’s door. Her simple dress—and the name Eva—caught me off guard. I watched, curious, as she led him outside the City and began to tell her story in the moonlight.
But something didn’t make sense. Perry could feel it too. Why had she dragged him into the night just to tell him about herself? Surely she knew she would remember again?
It’s no exaggeration to say I was dumbstruck when she announced she wanted to go to the Celestial City and place her invitation in the King’s hand. So much for my plans about dialogue writing and War and Peace.
Eva has proven a particularly stubborn character to write. She refuses to do anything she doesn’t want to. I’ve discovered this more than once—especially when she chose to endure the mud of the Slough rather than ever set foot in Carnal Policy again to take the bridge there.
For now, she waits patiently at the Wicket Gate. Good-Will has washed her feet, and she seems perfectly content to remain there with Perry while I write my own story.
So I pick up my pen and begin to write—about how Mom and Dad abandoned me in Uncertain. When I finish, I’ll bind and send you a copy. Then, I’ll return to Eva and Perry’s story.
Sincerely,
Seeker











